Take the time to attend to an ordinary life and you will find; dramas and disasters, triumphs and terrors, hope and horror and stories more fantastical than Dostoevsky ever imagined.
Solar systems of fascinating and moving stories.
Stories just like yours.
Stories entirely different to yours.
Stories which will make you laugh and cry and shake your head at the wonder of it all.
The wonder of it all.
Sometimes you’ll hear a story and think – well, that’s a story I can identify with even though it never happened to me.
That’s a story that needed to be told.
And, stories that need to be told need attentive listeners.
John Gorka is a songwriter who ponders stories in his heart so that the songs that emerge carry an enormously powerful emotional charge.
Soldiers fight and soldiers die
Soldiers live to wonder why
Semper fi fe fo fum
Look out peacetime here we come
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A Family story.
One man’s Father and a story he carried within him for silent decades.
My father joined the leathernecks
To stay out of the mines
The new marine was just fifteen
In 1939
A story of a nation and its leaders.
My father met Eleanor Roosevelt
In 1945
The war at last was over then
And they were still alive
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Her husband was the President
Till he ran out of time
Her Franklin D. was history
And they’d put him on the dime
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A story of a War which left a bloody trail all over the world.
There were medals and malaria
The south pacific war
Through jungles that were paradise
And were paradise no more
A story that excavates buried torments
Some of the men who did survive
Were not the lucky ones
My father lay recovering
The hurt was all inside
Sometimes the wounds that never heal
Are easiest to hide
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A story that tells you hard truths.
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Soldiers fight and soldiers die
Soldiers live to wonder why
War is only good for those
Who make and sell the guns
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A story that reminds us that in the midst of terror and chaos what saves us is kindness and love.
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When Eleanor came bearing gifts
To San Francisco Bay
She gave my dad a blanket
In the hospital that day
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That blanket meant alot to him
My mother has it still
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Some forget the kindnesses
That others never will
A story that’s a nightmare and a hard won blessing.
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Soldiers fight and soldiers die
Soldiers live to wonder why
Semper fi fe fo fum
Look out peacetime here we come
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Soldiers fight and soldiers die
Soldiers live to wonder why
Semper fi fe fo fum
Look out peacetime here we come
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In the interviews I have seen with John Gorka he appears charmingly modest and hesitant.
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But playing live, having pondered the story he is about to tell, when his fingers encounter the guitar and he sings a voice emerges which is deep, rich and resonant.
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In Semper FI John has been faithful to the lived experience of his father.
A 15 year old boy who grew up during a dark depression only to travel thousands of miles to grow up faster than anyone ever should among shot and shell and death.
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John Gorka has also been faithful and done honour to the craft of song writing.
Yet, barely a day goes by without me remembering some saying of his or wondering what would he have made of the roller coaster of current events.
Each day, looking in the mirror, I resemble him more and more.
And, each day, I wish I could reach my hand out to hold his once more.
Until that day all I can do is remember him in my prayers, honour him in my actions and stumblingly capture him with my words.
Fathers and Sons. Sons and Fathers. Sons carry their Father’s in their bloodstream, in their mannerisms and gestures and in the echoing halls of their memories.
No matter what you do in life, no matter how radically you roam from where you started you remain in some part of you (in more parts that you usually like to acknowledge) your Father’s son.
The process of becoming a man might be defined as honouring and taking the best from the experiences of your Father’s life while finding through your own experiences the kind of man and Father you want to be yourself.
Coming to terms with your Father, the Son you were and are and the man and Father you have become is the work of a lifetime. A story that’s always unfolding, always being rewritten as you learn more about the man you are and understand more about the man your Father was.
Sons, schooled by the abrasive tides of life, sometimes learn to have a certain humility about the easy certainties of their youth as to who their Fathers was and what made him that way. It’s easy to be a Father until you become one.
‘What did I know? What did I know of
Love’s austere and lonely offices?’ (Robert Hayden)
Sons writing about Father’s is one of the great themes of all literature and songwriting because that story is always current, always unfolding, always full to the brim with all that is human in all its bloody and terrible glory.
No two stories of Fathers and Sons are the same though most will recognise something of themselves in every story.
Here’s a cry from the soul. Paul Simon’s, ‘Maybe I Think Too Much’ from his aptly titled, ‘Hearts And Bones’ record. Fathers and Sons – Hearts and Bones, Hearts and Bones.
Sons never know when they will need to call for their Fathers to appear in their dreams.
‘They say the left side of the brain dominates the right
And the right side has to labor through the long and speechless night
In the night my Father came and held me to his chest.
He said there’s not much more that you can do
Go Home and get some rest.’
The song about Father’s and Sons that grips my heart every time I hear it and which calls to me in the middle of the night is John Gorka’s, ‘The Mercy Of The Wheels’.
Forgive the initially muffled sound.
‘I’d like to catch a train that could go back in time
That could make a lot of stops along the way
I would go to see my Father with the eyes he left behind
I would go for all the words I’d like to say
And I ‘d take along a sandwich and a picture of my girl
And show them all that I made out OK’
I miss my Father. My Dad.
I miss the smell of Old Holborn tobacco as he smoked one of his thin roll your own cigarettes.
I miss the days of childhood when I would buy him a pouch of Old Holborn for Father’s Day.
I miss getting up in the middle of the night with him to hear crackly radio commentaries on Muhammad Ali fights.
I miss the early Sunday mornings when we walked to a church two parishes away because he had been advised to walk a lot after his heart attack.
I miss hearing him roar home Lester Piggott as he brought the Vincent O’Brien horse into the lead in The Derby with half a furlong to go!
I miss hearing him say, ‘There’ll never be another like him’ as Jimmy Greaves scored another nonchalant goal for Spurs.
I miss hearing him say, ‘That was a complete waste of electricity’ as he glanced at the TV screen as some worthy drama concluded.
I miss sharing a pot of very, very strong tea with him well before six o clock in the morning – because as anyone with any sense knew the best of the day was gone before most people bothered to open an eye.
I miss sitting with him in easeful silence.
I miss him always expecting me to come top in every exam while always expecting me not to count on that.
I miss his indulgence in Fry’s Chocolate Cream bars.
I miss him saying, ‘You’ll be fine so ..’ whenever I had to face a daunting new challenge in life.
I miss him calling out the names of the men who worked with him on the building sites – Toher and Boucher and O’ Rahilly with me double checking the spellings as we filled out (creatively) the time sheets accounting for every hour of effort in the working week
I miss watching him expertly navigating his way to a green field site not marked on any map to start a new job and then watching him get hopelessly lost a mile from home on a shopping trip
I miss watching his delight as David Carradine in the TV show Kung Fu, unarmed, took on another gang of armed swaggering bullies and reduced them to whimpers in a few moments – ‘You watch he’ll be catching bullets next’.
I miss hearing his wholly unexpected but wholly accurate estimation of Bruce Springsteen’s cultural importance when seeing him featured on a news special when he first came to England: ‘He’ll never be Elvis’
I miss the way he remained a proud Tipperary man and Irishman despite living for more than 40 years in England.
I miss his quiet certainty that there was an after life – a world where Father’s and Sons divided by death could meet again.
I regret not being able to introduce him to the beautiful woman who, amazingly, wanted to be and became my wife.
I regret not watching him watch my Daughter and my Son grow up into their glorious selves.
I regret not watching him enjoying the pleasures of retirement and old age.
I miss alternating between thinking I was nothing like him and thinking I was exactly like him!
I miss the shyness of his smile.
I miss the sound of his voice.
I miss the touch of his leathery hands.
I miss the way he swept his left hand back across his thinning scalp when he was tired (exactly as I do now).
I miss the sound of my name when he said it.
I miss my Dad.
My dad lies in the green pastures of his beloved Tipperary now under the sheltering slopes of Slievenamon (he would never have forgiven me had he been buried anywhere else!)
You can almost hear this song echoing in the silence all around him.
I walked many roads with my Father.
I’ve walked many miles without him by my side now (though I sometimes feel his presence).
I hope I have many miles to walk until I join him again.
As I walk I will lean on him as I face the twists, turns and trip hazards ahead, accompanied by the words of Seamus Heaney:
‘Dangerous pavements … But this year I face the ice with my Father’s stick’
Thanks to Martin Doyle for featuring this tribute in The Irish Times.
My Dad would have been very proud to see it there.
Fathers and Sons. Sons and Fathers. Sons carry their Father’s in their bloodstream, in their mannerisms and gestures and in the echoing halls of their memories. No matter what you do in life, no matter how radically you roam from where you started you remain in some part of you (in more parts that you usually like to acknowledge) your Father’s son.
The process of becoming a man might be defined as honouring and taking the best from the experiences of your Father’s life while finding through your own experiences the kind of man and Father you want to be yourself.
Coming to terms with your Father, the Son you were and are and the man and Father you have become is the work of a lifetime. A story that’s always unfolding, always being rewritten as you learn more about the man you are and understand more about the man your Father was. Sons, schooled by the abrasive tides of life, sometimes learn to have a certain humility about the easy certainties of their youth as to who their Fathers was and what made him that way. It’s easy to be a Father until you become one.
‘What did I know? What did I know of
Love’s austere and lonely offices?’ (Robert Hayden)
Sons writing about Father’s is one of the great themes of all literature and songwriting because that story is always current, always unfolding, always full to the brim with all that is human in all its bloody and terrible glory. No two stories of Fathers and Sons are the same though most will recognise something of themselves in every story.
Here’s a cry from the soul. Paul Simon’s, ‘Maybe I Think Too Much’ from his aptly titled, ‘Hearts And Bones’ record. Fathers and Sons – Hearts and Bones, Hearts and Bones. Sons never know when they will need to call for their Fathers to appear in their dreams.
‘They say the left side of the brain dominates the right
And the right side has to labor through the long and speechless night
In the night my Father came and held me to his chest.
He said there’s not much more that you can do
Go Home and get some rest.’
The song about Father’s and Sons that grips my heart every time I hear it and which calls to me in the middle of the night is John Gorka’s, ‘The Mercy Of The Wheels’ Forgive the initially muffled sound.
‘I’d like to catch a train that could go back in time
That could make a lot of stops along the way
I would go to see my Father with the eyes he left behind
I would go for all the words I’d like to say
And I ‘d take along a sandwich and a picture of my girl
And show them all that I made out OK’
I miss my Father. My Dad.
I miss the smell of Old Holborn tobacco as he smoked one of his thin roll your own cigarettes.
I miss the days of childhood when I would buy him a pouch of Old Holborn for Father’s Day.
I miss getting up in the middle of the night with him to hear crackly radio commentaries on Muhammad Ali fights.
I miss the early Sunday mornings when we walked to a church two parishes away because he had been advised to walk a lot after his heart attack.
I miss hearing him roar home Lester Piggott as he brought the Vincent O’Brien horse into the lead in The Derby with half a furlong to go!
I miss hearing him say, ‘There’ll never be another like him’ as Jimmy Greaves scored another nonchalant goal for Spurs.
I miss hearing him say, ‘That was a complete waste of electricity’ as he glanced at the TV screen as some worthy drama concluded.
I miss sharing a pot of very, very strong tea with him well before six o clock in the morning – because as anyone with any sense knew the best of the day was gone before most people bothered to open an eye.
I miss sitting with him in easeful silence.
I miss him always expecting me to come top in every exam while always expecting me not to count on that.
I miss his indulgence in Fry’s Chocolate Cream bars.
I miss him saying, ‘You’ll be fine so ..’ whenever I had to face a daunting new challenge in life.
I miss him calling out the names of the men who worked with him on the building sites – Toher and Boucher and O’ Rahilly with me double checking the spellings as we filled out (creatively) the time sheets accounting for every hour of effort in the working week
I miss watching him expertly navigating his way to a green field site not marked on any map to start a new job and then watching him get hopelessly lost a mile from home on a shopping trip
I miss watching his delight as David Carradine in the TV show Kung Fu, unarmed, took on another gang of armed swaggering bullies and reduced them to whimpers in a few moments – ‘You watch he’ll be catching bullets next’.
I miss hearing his wholly unexpected but wholly accurate estimation of Bruce Springsteen’s cultural importance when seeing him featured on a news special when he first came to England: ‘He’ll never be Elvis’
I miss the way he remained a proud Tipperary man and Irishman despite living for more than 40 years in England.
I miss his quiet certainty that there was an after life – a world where Father’s and Sons divided by death could meet again.
I regret not being able to introduce him to the beautiful woman who, amazingly, wanted to be and became my wife.
I regret not watching him watch my Daughter and my Son grow up into their glorious selves.
I regret not watching him enjoying the pleasures of retirement and old age.
I miss alternating between thinking I was nothing like him and thinking I was exactly like him!
I miss the shyness of his smile.
I miss the sound of his voice.
I miss the touch of his leathery hands.
I miss the way he swept his left hand back across his thinning scalp when he was tired (exactly as I do now).
I miss the sound of my name when he said it.
I miss my Dad.
My dad lies in the green pastures of his beloved Tipperary now under the sheltering slopes of Slievenamon (he would never have forgiven me had he been buried anywhere else!) You can almost hear this song echoing in the silence all around him.
I walked many roads with my Father. I’ve walked many miles without him by my side now (though I sometimes feel his presence). I hope I have many miles to walk until I join him again. As I walk I will lean on him as I face the twists, turns and trip hazards ahead, accompanied by the words of
Seamus Heaney:
‘Dangerous pavements … But this year I face the ice with my Father’s stick’
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